Monday, June 21, 2010
Just be yourself
Just be yourself really. It'd be good to put off bad habits of course, but there's no need to change who you are for what others might think of you.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Dear Lord
Many a times we get tired of running this race,
Indeed, to choose this life would mean so much more to face
So many a times when what we've said was a mistake
We look back and wish we didn't our mouths with those words, cake
It should be a joy to help others along the way
Yet sometimes we feel there're way too many for one day
We're taught to rejoice with others when they rejoice,
Yet often times it's easier to weep with those whose eyes are moist
We ought in our dealings with others to do away with partiality
Yet many a times judgements of others leave us guarded in reality
It's true, i won't pretend to be a goodie two shoes
I have my reservations at times while struggling with the don'ts and do's
Perhaps sometimes we've forgotten there's aid from above,
Just like some birds need updraft to soar for example the dove
It's just like us humans to rely on our own stengths
As a result of that we often have to go to great lengths
To find that joy in what we do
To feel that inner peace which makes one cool
Still it's not easy i confess
All i can do is look ahead and do my best
Dear Lord
Help me to find it in myself
To be joyful in doing thy will
A dusty window pane can be frustrating at times
When hope is all you have and nothing as tangible as dimes
When you want to feel, touch and see into the distance
Yet you know you've got to wait longer for that joyous songful cadence
When you look around you and lots are almost there
And realise you're struggling behind in a no hard and fast rule affair
When the lil holes in your heart feel as if they might give way and it, tear
Because some things only appear once in a lifetime of that you're aware
Friend, perhaps you won't hit the nail in the head so quick
Yes I know It's hard for you to kick against those pricks
It all boils down to one thing once again
Dear Lord,
Help me to be patient,
Teach me to wait
Indeed, to choose this life would mean so much more to face
So many a times when what we've said was a mistake
We look back and wish we didn't our mouths with those words, cake
It should be a joy to help others along the way
Yet sometimes we feel there're way too many for one day
We're taught to rejoice with others when they rejoice,
Yet often times it's easier to weep with those whose eyes are moist
We ought in our dealings with others to do away with partiality
Yet many a times judgements of others leave us guarded in reality
It's true, i won't pretend to be a goodie two shoes
I have my reservations at times while struggling with the don'ts and do's
Perhaps sometimes we've forgotten there's aid from above,
Just like some birds need updraft to soar for example the dove
It's just like us humans to rely on our own stengths
As a result of that we often have to go to great lengths
To find that joy in what we do
To feel that inner peace which makes one cool
Still it's not easy i confess
All i can do is look ahead and do my best
Dear Lord
Help me to find it in myself
To be joyful in doing thy will
A dusty window pane can be frustrating at times
When hope is all you have and nothing as tangible as dimes
When you want to feel, touch and see into the distance
Yet you know you've got to wait longer for that joyous songful cadence
When you look around you and lots are almost there
And realise you're struggling behind in a no hard and fast rule affair
When the lil holes in your heart feel as if they might give way and it, tear
Because some things only appear once in a lifetime of that you're aware
Friend, perhaps you won't hit the nail in the head so quick
Yes I know It's hard for you to kick against those pricks
It all boils down to one thing once again
Dear Lord,
Help me to be patient,
Teach me to wait
Sunday, June 6, 2010
In loving memory
We first met at a lectureship at Jurong Church of Christ,
Having learned that i was going to study Pharmacy, you gave me your name card and told me to contact you if i needed any advice, as you were one yourself. I'm sorry that i've seemed to have misplaced your namecard. i'm sure it's still somwhere in my cupboard but i coudn't seem to find it when i was looking for it yesterday. We didn't really contact each other regularly. But if i'm not wrong, i think i saw you at one or 2 other church events at Jurong. One prominent piece of advice you gave me was that you didn't believe in confining yourself to the doctor's prescriptions and treatments when you fell ill. You preferred to read up more on your own, on other methods of treatment. This was because you felt that recovery should be an active thing and that we should be active in controlling our recoveries. After Bro Danny's house warming, i learned that you had been coughing for a rather long time and asked you what the matter was. At that time, you had not yet found out that you had that wretched disease, and treated it as a normal ailment. Some time later you were diagnosed with Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension and that was the reason for your persistent coughs and shortlessness of breath. You told us that there was currently no known cure for the condition and that you had to undergo clinical trials for the doctors to come up with a suitable drug for your treatment. During your treatment, you suffered from acid refluxes, gastric problems and other symptoms. You were unable to eat the foods you wanted to, unable to do everything which you had planned. At times, even unable to properly care for your son, Ravel. But still you fought, and continued trusting in God.. Most of us probably won't be able to understand what you went through, the most we could do was to encourage you, pray for you and to take care of your family. But we know that you're now in a better place, waiting for each of us to come to you at the end of our pilgrimages.
In late April, we were exchanging text messages and you told me that you felt so much nearer to death, after seeing the passing of aunty Meow Cheng. I remembered telling you that the most effective way that would allow you to continue fighting would be to find that reason within you to keep on keeping on. You told me that would be your son Ravel. At that point, i still did not realise the enormity of the situation, and for that i'm sorry. Thank you very much also for the encouragement that you gave me also at that time, befor emy exams. After my exams I tried to text you again, but at that point, you were already too weak to text much. A few days later, you were admitted into hospital.
A few of us planned to go to see you in hospital after 1 or 2 days, because you weren't allowed visitors for a while. During these 1 or 2 dys, we learned of your multiple organ failures. You were put on a life support machine. On the morning of the day we were supposed to go to see you, i had to make a trip to the mall to gather some logistics for this year's June camp. We planned to see you in the afternoon. However, at the point when i finished my shopping and was just about to be on my way to see you in hospital, Angeling informed me that you were gone.
When someone has passed away, it takes a while for those that are still remaining behind to accept the fact that he or she has passed away. Because, as my mum puts it, you just don't know where to look for that person anymore. Can't seem to grasp the presence of that person anymore. And that Sis Linda, is how we feel about you now. Can't seem to grasp your presence any longer.
You may have left, but the memory of you still lives on in all of us. I may not have known you for very long or very well, but you live on in mine too.
At the wake tonight, you looked so peaceful, and we knew that you indeed had gone on to a better place. A place void of pain and tears. Looking at your empty shell in the casket tonight Linda, further re-affirms our faith in Bible, which we all believe in. There must be an entity in the human body to fill it up, to give it life. Without that something, the body on it's own has no life. That's what makes such a great difference between a living person and someone who has passed away. When you were alive Linda, that soul was in you, and we could tell that soul was in you through the life you exuberated, but now remains an empty shell. And what a difference, dear sister, we observed tonight, in your shell, without your soul to fill it up.
Indeed, the body without the soul is dead, but the soul never dies.
You fought well sister Linda, now's the time to take your rest.
Ravel's in good hands we promise.
In loving memory of Linda Sim
Having learned that i was going to study Pharmacy, you gave me your name card and told me to contact you if i needed any advice, as you were one yourself. I'm sorry that i've seemed to have misplaced your namecard. i'm sure it's still somwhere in my cupboard but i coudn't seem to find it when i was looking for it yesterday. We didn't really contact each other regularly. But if i'm not wrong, i think i saw you at one or 2 other church events at Jurong. One prominent piece of advice you gave me was that you didn't believe in confining yourself to the doctor's prescriptions and treatments when you fell ill. You preferred to read up more on your own, on other methods of treatment. This was because you felt that recovery should be an active thing and that we should be active in controlling our recoveries. After Bro Danny's house warming, i learned that you had been coughing for a rather long time and asked you what the matter was. At that time, you had not yet found out that you had that wretched disease, and treated it as a normal ailment. Some time later you were diagnosed with Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension and that was the reason for your persistent coughs and shortlessness of breath. You told us that there was currently no known cure for the condition and that you had to undergo clinical trials for the doctors to come up with a suitable drug for your treatment. During your treatment, you suffered from acid refluxes, gastric problems and other symptoms. You were unable to eat the foods you wanted to, unable to do everything which you had planned. At times, even unable to properly care for your son, Ravel. But still you fought, and continued trusting in God.. Most of us probably won't be able to understand what you went through, the most we could do was to encourage you, pray for you and to take care of your family. But we know that you're now in a better place, waiting for each of us to come to you at the end of our pilgrimages.
In late April, we were exchanging text messages and you told me that you felt so much nearer to death, after seeing the passing of aunty Meow Cheng. I remembered telling you that the most effective way that would allow you to continue fighting would be to find that reason within you to keep on keeping on. You told me that would be your son Ravel. At that point, i still did not realise the enormity of the situation, and for that i'm sorry. Thank you very much also for the encouragement that you gave me also at that time, befor emy exams. After my exams I tried to text you again, but at that point, you were already too weak to text much. A few days later, you were admitted into hospital.
A few of us planned to go to see you in hospital after 1 or 2 days, because you weren't allowed visitors for a while. During these 1 or 2 dys, we learned of your multiple organ failures. You were put on a life support machine. On the morning of the day we were supposed to go to see you, i had to make a trip to the mall to gather some logistics for this year's June camp. We planned to see you in the afternoon. However, at the point when i finished my shopping and was just about to be on my way to see you in hospital, Angeling informed me that you were gone.
When someone has passed away, it takes a while for those that are still remaining behind to accept the fact that he or she has passed away. Because, as my mum puts it, you just don't know where to look for that person anymore. Can't seem to grasp the presence of that person anymore. And that Sis Linda, is how we feel about you now. Can't seem to grasp your presence any longer.
You may have left, but the memory of you still lives on in all of us. I may not have known you for very long or very well, but you live on in mine too.
At the wake tonight, you looked so peaceful, and we knew that you indeed had gone on to a better place. A place void of pain and tears. Looking at your empty shell in the casket tonight Linda, further re-affirms our faith in Bible, which we all believe in. There must be an entity in the human body to fill it up, to give it life. Without that something, the body on it's own has no life. That's what makes such a great difference between a living person and someone who has passed away. When you were alive Linda, that soul was in you, and we could tell that soul was in you through the life you exuberated, but now remains an empty shell. And what a difference, dear sister, we observed tonight, in your shell, without your soul to fill it up.
Indeed, the body without the soul is dead, but the soul never dies.
You fought well sister Linda, now's the time to take your rest.
Ravel's in good hands we promise.
In loving memory of Linda Sim
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