Walls

I don't mean to be selfish. But sometimes, I see a need to build a wall around myself. You can't please everyone, or make them happy - all the time. A firm No's in order. And though i feel quite rotten about it right now, the first step towards making a difference in the future starts with some pain.

Kites

As long as you don't let go of that string

And no matter how far in the distance I may seem,

I won't fly away

Personal space

Compromise in matters of opinion I can, and I will,

But not on my personal space

Of things loved

I love the feeling when the last paper of the semester ends,

I love the feeling of getting home after that

I love the feeling of having nothing to do that evening

I love the feeling of packing those ol' notes of the semester away

I love stacking them up away in the corner,

I love staying up late and having a good surf on the net that night,

I love getting up the following day - sleeping in as late as i can

I love waking up to having nothing to study for

I love waking up to water the mints

I love rubbing my fingers against their leaves,

I love the scent that I've rubbed off

I love the following days in which i totally wind down and relax

I love getting out of bed and going for a swim in the mornings

I love how slow things seems underwater

I love drying up and lazing on the bed again

I love how i get muscle aches after exercising

I love anticipating the upcoming activities for church

I love looking at the calender and see them coming closer and closer,

I love returning to FourSeas college and seeing the many familiar faces there

I love returning to FourSeas college to see new faces too,

I love the long train rides on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays all the way to Jurong,

I love looking out the train windows especially on bright sunny days,

I love the lifts there that we get on most days though

I love lazing behind on the mini couch in the van when we get lifts

I love the 45 minute lunches which everyone else

I love the way everyone encourages everyone else,

I love the way everyone smiles at everyone else,

I love the insights each instructor gives for each lesson,

I love the rustling sound of sweet wrappers as we try to stay awake during afternoon sessions,

I love singing hymns during chapel

I love learning more about Christian evidences because i re-affirm my faith,

I love getting together to do 10 page long term papers and thinking how to fill up the space

I love Thursday night dinners at Teo Seng,

I love drinking soya bean milk while walking back to church,

I love the company of my brothers and sisters

I love the fact that many of them live nearby

I love God

I love being quiet and listening

I love thinking about stuff too

I love expressing myself in poems

I love composing poems for those who mean alot to me

I love it when they tell me they like it

I love seeing my loved ones happy,

I love it even more If I was the cause of their joy

I love random but meaningful conversations

I love it when I find that I can connect with someone else

I love things nice, plain and simple

I love driving with my family as passengers

I love eating instant noodles late at night

I love yes or no answers, not up to you answers

I love longer text messages and not just one word ones

I love home cooked food

I love lazy Sunday afternoons

I love Sunday afternoon naps

I love it when people are open and honest

I love sweet things, but not too sweet,

I love listening to songs that I love over and over again

I love getting into the mood of the song

I love singing although i can't sing that well

I love getting into the lift with no one inside so I can practice singing out loud

I love to self-reflect though that gets me frustrated at times

I love taking things one at a time

I love getting notebooks for peoples' birthdays somehow

I love to see people happy

I love cold rainy nights

I love them because it's comfortable to sleep in that weather

I love rainy days when i'm at home

I love sentimental tunes

I love to encourage

I love being encouraged

I love trying to smile as much as I can

I love it when people smile at me too

I love adding things to this list because it reminds me how blessed I've been

I love loving and learning to love

I love being loved

I love expressing love if I can

I love having my love tested so I can know how much I want this

I love kneeling down beside my bed at night to cry if need be because I know He cares

I love kneeling down beside my bed at night to pray because I know He understands

I love that bit of hope which remains in me though I know i'm up against the odds sometimes

I love how God's promised us that all things work together for good because I know I can't handle my life alone

You.

I always thought you'd be my rose

Or so that was what i conceived

It's really amazing what love can do

Such that i simply chose not to perceive

Then again it's really no fault of yours,

And it's not my blessing too,

To chance upon this rose first,

Which is in the form of you

I guess things aren't as simple as i thought they'd be

Poems have never been so easy to compose

And i said in my heart hey this is really natural

But alas for me, you're already someone's rose

Now hope has died down greatly,

How it feels i can't put to rhyme,

Because this rose I've looked upon for so long

Is not likely ever to be mine

Thank you so much my rose,

Your smile marked so much i did

We may not have known much in person

Just somehow i felt you were it..

What's to be done then,

Honestly i don't know what I shall do

But still i'll stand at a distance because i care

If that's second best to standing by you

You're only a tiny rosebud,

A flower of God's design;

But i cannot unfold the petals,

With these clumsy hands of mine

The secret of unfolding flowers,

Is not known to such as I

God opens the flowers so easily,

But in my hands they die

If i cannot unfold a rosebud,

This flower of God's design,

Then how can i have the wisdom,

To unfold this life of mine?

So i'll trust in God for leading

Each moment of the day

I will look to God for guidance

In every step of the way

The path that lies before me

Only my Lord will know

I'll trust God to unfold these moments

Just as He unfolds the rose

You.

What makes you different

Makes you beautiful to me